The Mask

[Red Hot]

The mask was put on to extend his best behavior,
he would woo her sweetly and his love, she would savor.

She beamed with delight and he took away all her frights,
but it was last night, that she knew,he was a false Mr. Right.

Never there for her and always making her cry,
she talked to God, always asking him why.
Why did he put on a mask with a false personna,
he once made her feel special, like a belladonna.

Too busy to care and unable to love,
she prays to be strong to her Angel above.

Dismiss his being in her life,
she will never make it to be a wife.

The mask came off and she likes him not,
she feels betrayed and can't connect the dots.
The dots that once drew love everlasting,
has come to an end, this false romancing.

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

Great job again, Red! And I think you should report him or block him or something. What have you done so far to get him to leave you alone?

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

I answer his posts in a friendly, caring manner. I can't make trouble for him else I am DOOMED!

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

Well, you have to do something! You can't let it get any worse. Like with a pot of boiling water with food cooking in it, you leave it and the water will rise up and the food will spill all over the place...okay bad analogy, but I'm just trying to say that it will not help you any if you leave it alone. Especially when a man is stalking you. Please, I'm asking you. Nobody here wants you to get hurt!

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

Thanks iscream. He seems to have lost my home email address and I have 3 chums on the other forum noticing and looking out for me. I hope he tires of me. If he detests me so much, why post?

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

Well there are some major sick people out there, and we have to all be careful.

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

Yes now I know. I really thought he was a friend. I seem to chose men who befriend me, use me up, hurt me continunally and then throw me away.

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

It'll get better soon. Just keep positive!

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

Thanks iscream. You are very sweet!

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

Thanks! I don't like when people are upset, and I like trying to cheer people up :)

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

Well you made me smile and I thank you, iscream.

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

No problem, you can talk to me!

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

My friend made a bunch of lifetime promises to me (like can he be my Mr. Right in all I am looking for) and he became obsessed with me. Things changed and we started to argue alot.
He grows close and then distant.
When I ask to talk about "us" he has more excuses not too and gets angry so I get upset, call him names, say good bye and he comes back. This is a continual thing and yesterday was the final straw. He had another excuse not to discuss "us" and then said he was different then and so was I and when I said I want him back as he use to be, he said things change and never stay the same so I asked him to leave me alone.
He emailed me a long email basically repeating several times I can contact him but he will leave me alone as I requested. I contacted him and we made up but when I tried to ask to discuss "us" he got angry all over again.
I am not a puppet - I am human and I have feelings.
I can't just be a pal (as he wants) because we had a "special friendship" for 18 months.
How can he just want to be a "pal"? That is impossible for me.
Also, when I tell him I am moving on, he ignores it. I guess he really is not in love with me anymore, huh?

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

I think you should get a whole new email address and make a new account here, then try your best to forget him. I'm very sorry he caused you so much pain, but he's a bastard, and is not worth your time or pain.

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[biggizmo54]

*listens in background*

ophidian_rising2000
...when the Gates of Hell open, only then will you see the "TRUE DRAGON"...

[Red Hot]

My best friend is so sick of him hurting me and I always let it roll off and befriend him again. Maybe I need guts to end it forever but I just can't. Maybe I can just be pals with him.

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

I don't think that's a wise idea. He's a bad fish, just throw him back. There are other guys. You -nor anyone else here- wants you to get hurt again. Don't trust him again.

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

Well it is hard to do - my mind keeps playing all the good ole times over and over and over.

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

Then you need to remind yourself that those times were his stupid lies.

"Can a moral man maintain his moral code in an immoral world?"
-Mordechai(Uprising)

[Red Hot]

And that hurts even more.

[biggizmo54]

You know you can vent with me anytime, Red...Hey where is that story we were building on?

ophidian_rising2000
...when the Gates of Hell open, only then will you see the "TRUE DRAGON"...

[Red Hot]

Thanks biggizmo. The elastic snapped on his mask and he is choking the life out of me with it. He is very stressed and no matter what I do or say, he makes me feel like I am in his way. Kicking me hard into a large hole in the ground, it is so dark and muddy and I do not hear a sound. Is it a cry for help or is he closing me off for good? I am totally confused and not understood.

[biggizmo54]

(gasping to breathe the air for Red).....

ophidian_rising2000
...when the Gates of Hell open, only then will you see the "TRUE DRAGON"...

[Red Hot]

Why thanks, biggizmo. You may breathe again. As much as I love that man, I decided it is better when he is the one to contact me. Now I can't breathe with this darn cold!! Pooh!

[schizoCuRsEgirl.erghh]

aaawwww red you hold your pretty head high, darlin. that man will see what a great thing he's missing if you leave him to his sad self and come back begging for your beautiful love!

<If ThIs Is WhAt LiFe LoOkS LiKe I'd RaThEr Be BlInD>

omen_flower

[Red Hot]

That is just what I am going to do, schizo! He was so good to me and it all disappeared. We were very close and I miss that but, let him find me again!

But I spell you love and still you do not hear.