Fearing Me

[demonchild1804]

Bled more than I thought I could.
Screaming no, still knowing I would.
Unable to control myself at all,
Why bother to stand only to fall?
This pain keeps me awake inside.
And the darkness lends a place to hide.
The blade seems my only true friend.
A vicious cycle that will never end.
Nothing to lose, yet nothing to gain.
As I watch my blood swirl down the drain.
Fighting myself almost everyday
but still can't keep these thoughts at bay.
Too much sorrow for me to tell.
Held so long and then I fell.
Blind to my rage, you can't see
My only fear is what I'll do to me.

I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[schizoCuRsEgirl.erghh]

that totally sums up what happened to my friend kelly...she has the most awful scars from cutting all over her body- ive seen them their awful- and all her hair feel out from stress and it grew in really thin and she used to tear at it,,,,wow you have like, totally crawled inside my head!!!!!! fantastic. really. ¬!!!!!!!!

*"Oh yeah, girls take hearts and eat them, beware dudes".*
(Tom)
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[demonchild1804]

i have 29 scars on the lower part of my leg(my sis counted) not counting the newest ones. Numeral scars on the tops of my legs and arms.
Sometimes i feel ashamed of me. Sometimes i really do scare myself. My poems are my actual thoughts.
I am sorry about ur friend.

I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[iScreamUscreamWeAllScream]

Wow, I'm sorry Demonchild!

SIE wurful in drei, zwei, ein...

[Red Hot]

I am so sorry demonchild. I hope you can stop doing that to yourself.

[paranoid]

Your poem's really good. Just remember that things will get better eventually.

I'm not crazy!

[demonchild1804]

Paranoid- that's the sad part, I have no reason anymore, My life is better now but cutting became so much a part ao that i may never stop. it's like a drug i cant live without,
And thank u all for the support, it helps.

I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[dyinangelc]

if i hear u cut yourself ever again. more pain will came to u. remember a few minutes ago. that is a very bad thing to do. if i would have started when i was in so much pain that i could not handle. i dont think i would be here today.

if i go to hell, the whole world is going to join me.

[demonchild1804]

i tried not to be here today, and have u looked at my arms recently?


I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[dyinangelc]

no i aint. i dont think i would be able to stand lookin


if i go to hell, the whole world is going to join me.

[demonchild1804]

good close ur eyes. I got into a fight with my mom this morn. Cause she wants me to get rid of my puppy. She said i could keep him in our house then she forgot she said that and started to yell at me this mornin

I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[dyinangelc]

oh i see. wat did brant say to u???

if i go to hell, the whole world is going to join me.

[demonchild1804]

he hates to see me cry. i dont think he knows how to deal with my sadness. all week i have been cryin to him about my parents. I do everything for them, like tryin 2 morgage a home, giving them at least half my paychecks, takin care of my bro & sis, and she wont even let me keep my dog in her goddamn house.

I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[dyinangelc]

oh my thats not good. keep the pup somewhere else

if i go to hell, the whole world is going to join me.

[demonchild1804]

she changed her mind when i came home from school, i can keep him. and she apologized.
i think she remembered she told me i could.

I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.

[dyinangelc]

thats good. wat kind of pup is it


if i go to hell, the whole world is going to join me.

[demonchild1804]

half rott and boxer


I've got you where i want you now.On your knees I make you bow.
I killed your god and ate his face. Then took his body to my secret place.