schizoCuRsEgirl.erghh
12-20-2004, 04:58 PM
my head is full up of memories, most of them useless, but this is something pretty freaky that really happened to me and my mates last winter. we never forgot it. i never forgot how stupid i was. if you want to feel like we felt, i reccommend you turn all lights and noise off and sit in silent darkness while you read this. enjoy...
i used to have a condition called insommia, you've probably heard of it, it means that i had big trouble sleeping, and because of this i had no appetite. in fact that month alone i lost a stone and a half, and i started cutting myself. and as usual i turned to my mates for affection and support, not telling them what was going on until much later, but organising a girly party for my closest female friends, if only to take my mind off it. i didnt invite my guy mates over, i had already arranged to go hang with two of them that weekend. of course, my parents didn't know about my condition, in fact my parents know very little about me, so they invited some friends of their own over that night. the deal was, we had our "party" upstairs while they had theirs downstairs. we were also allowed the third floor, my brother's domain, because as usual he was out getting some random girl pregnant somewhere. now dont get me wrong, i love my parents, they're great people, but i never tell them anything, they're too busy fighting. which is probs why me and my bro turned out so f**ked up. anyway. my parent's pals turned up and while they were getting off their heads drunk, i waited outside the house for my mates to arrive. it was about eight thirty, pitch black but for the stars (i live in a little village in Northumberland- i.e the county of hills, trees, rivers, the odd mountain and nothing else)and very, very cold. i was thinking about taking everyone up to the HaUnTeD HiLl, its like this big hill hidden in the valley and to get there you have to walk about half a mile through two hills a few fields and over a few fences through this really long corn field which climbs quite steeply upwards, and over a stile. about a half an hour walk, its got all these stupid horror stories told about it. i say stupid, though in reality i have discovered most of them to be true, but those are other stories. i'd taken my male and female friends there on many occasions, but never all the female ones together at night time, mainly cos only Chloe is the only one with the courage and love of horror not to run away screaming. and also because i was partly scared myself, that i couldnt protect them all together at once. but that night i was angry, angry that my parents were too busy with their own tangled love lives to notice what i was going through, angry that my brother was too obsessed with having a drunken riot to do anything but stare at my too baggy clothes and red scars and mutter something slurred, angry that even when he was sober he wouldn't care, or if he did, he would just get mad and say i was being stupid and did i want him to call the doctor or tell mum? anger makes you foolish, makes you implusive. part of me wanted to get hurt this time, if only to get some attention. so when my mates finally did arrive i helped them dump their stuff in the hall, and then told them of my plan. Alex totally freaked out, it took ages to persuade her, but the other two readily agreed, especially Chloe who was really hyped up and made me go search my room for all my lucky pentagrams- "to give us strength, who knows what we might encounter!" she had cried excitedly. Alex also made me go get a flashlight and a knife- "there is no bloody way im going up there in the dark- and i want you to have a weapon." i'd found that funny.
"me?! don't YOU want it, you're the one thats scared!"
"so? anyway im as weak as hell, and there is no way im sticking around to fight anything, you blinkin' mad? god!" well, at least she knew it, she was the girly, oh save me one of us lot anyway, and she'd never watched a single horror movie without hiding her face in my arm. poor thing. so we set off. we marched down the street to the first field, through the grass and over the fence (alex ripping her pants, heh heh ;)). thats where things got a big tricky. rosie and guess who, thats right, alex, were both scared of cows so they had to leg it to the other side and over the gate of this field, while me and chloe ran backwards behind them, cackling like loons to scare any maneating cows away. After alot of getting stuck in mud, caught in fences and running from 'vicious vultures' (to nonparanoid people, crows)we finally reached the stile. the moon had risen, and i could switch off the flashlight. moonlight shone down on the swaying corn around us, and the silhouette of the first dead tree on the Hill was swathed in silver. somewhere in the blackness ahead an animal cried. i felt someone take my hand, and i turned, was just able to see the gloomy outline of Alex's pale face. she was frightened. it was then i felt the first pang of regret, and i should have turned back then. but chloe was on my other side, her eyes a sparkle of blue glee in the darkness, and rosie whispered, "god its freaky" but with a brave undercurrent in her words nonetheless. so i stiffened my resolve, gently disloged alex's grasp, and climbed over the stile, my heart in my throat as i stepped on the moss of the Haunted Hill. i kept my eyes on my friends as one by one they joined me, Chloe bringing up the rear. a few deep breaths, and a gaze around (in daylight you can see the most stunning views of the valley)and we climbed down a little, crawling over the rabbit holes and holding onto boulders, then started to creep along a muddy outcrop of rock, a little ridge, in single file, me first, then alex, chloe and rosie, all the time aware of the steep high drop of the hill below us, one slip and you would be rolling down to the sand bank, and after that was a long fall. within a few seconds of inching along the great hulking outline of the opposite hill blocked out the moon, and blackness decended once more. suddenly Alex grabbed me and we both nearly fell! i tore at the grass and managed to stay upright. "WHAT ARE YOU PLAYING AT?" I hissed and slowly swung round to grab her shoulders. but she was shaking and gasping and i let my hands drop in horror. "whats wrong?" i whispered.
"ive just seen someone behind rosie! we're being followed!" i heard rosie and chloe catch their breath, and she moaned, " like a grey figure, a shape of a man! what are we going to do?" i held up my hand and softly i hissed,"ssshhh! all of you! listen." We all paused, and slowly turned to stare behind us. silence. an endless stretch of blackness. i shook my head. "theres nothing there!" Alex grabbed me once more. "there WAS! honestly, there was!" then rosie said quietly, "you know, i think i saw it too." chloe nodded to prove she too, had seen it. ""holy sh*t." said i. it was plain to see they weren't lying. "look, lets just keep- SNAP SNAP SNAP! "HOLY SH*T! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD F**K!" "AAAAARRRRGGGGHHH!"
"WHAT IN THE NAME OF F**K WAS THAT!"we screamed and screamed!! A twig to our left had snapped, then one to our right, and finally one ahead! we stood clutching each other, shaking and shivering, the black all around filled with menace! i broke apart from their grasps and started running, tearing at the thorns with my hands, ripping the flesh and bleeding. "come on!!" i heard crashes through the undergrowth behind me as my friends started running too, stumbling along in the blackness, tearing our way towards the tunnel of trees rising up like a black arch before us. inside lay deep shadow like the inside of a wolf's mouth- blacker than a cave, more deadly than imagination could create. and for the second time that god forsaken night, we were all deathly afraid, and a ripple of shivers passed through the icy thin air into each of of our bodies. another screech of an unknown animal filled the air and we twisted our necks as we ran, gazing up at the vast expanse of the sky dotted with stars frosty winds tearing at our lungs- and we crashed into the mini wood. all starlight went out, and the great green darkness of the leaf canopy hung just over our heads, the smell of fear thick in the air. "QUICK!" wheezed alex in a mutter, "TURN ON THE FLASHLIGHT!". chloe muttered behind her, "HURRY!" I stopped, fumbling with the buttons, causing alex to walk into me, chloe to bash into her and rosie to crash into all of us! i fell forward, cutting my cheek on the hawthorn trees walls on either side of us, squashing us in, and the flashlight fell to the ground with a heart stopping !CRACK!! "NO!" i cried aloud and suddenly the wood went silent as the grave, all i could hear was the ragged wheezing of alex and my mates' breathing. "you freak!" alex broke the silence with an angry whisper. "is it broken?" cried rosie in a undertone. gingerly i picked it up, and hit the on button. nothing.
"yes." behind me everyone groaned and the creaking of a tree made us jump. "we're just gonna have to find our way in the dark." rosie said softly. easier said than done, i thought, but we started walking again. faster this time. we continued in this way for a good ten minutes, jumping at every little noise, every little whistle of the wind, until i stopped. and looked around. and we were lost. "we're lost." i said. but nobody was listening. alex grabbed me once again. i turned. i looked behind. chloe stood, mouth open in shock. an owl hooted. rosie was gone.
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and i'll leave you there, dear reader, as i always like to leave a story on a cliffhanger. you can turn on your lights and stereo now. im sure you're glad to know i got the help i needed, i no longer cut myself, i sleep and i eat. but rosie, well one day i might tell you what happened to rosie.
one day.
*i will go down as your lover, your friend, give me your lips and with one kiss we begin*
i used to have a condition called insommia, you've probably heard of it, it means that i had big trouble sleeping, and because of this i had no appetite. in fact that month alone i lost a stone and a half, and i started cutting myself. and as usual i turned to my mates for affection and support, not telling them what was going on until much later, but organising a girly party for my closest female friends, if only to take my mind off it. i didnt invite my guy mates over, i had already arranged to go hang with two of them that weekend. of course, my parents didn't know about my condition, in fact my parents know very little about me, so they invited some friends of their own over that night. the deal was, we had our "party" upstairs while they had theirs downstairs. we were also allowed the third floor, my brother's domain, because as usual he was out getting some random girl pregnant somewhere. now dont get me wrong, i love my parents, they're great people, but i never tell them anything, they're too busy fighting. which is probs why me and my bro turned out so f**ked up. anyway. my parent's pals turned up and while they were getting off their heads drunk, i waited outside the house for my mates to arrive. it was about eight thirty, pitch black but for the stars (i live in a little village in Northumberland- i.e the county of hills, trees, rivers, the odd mountain and nothing else)and very, very cold. i was thinking about taking everyone up to the HaUnTeD HiLl, its like this big hill hidden in the valley and to get there you have to walk about half a mile through two hills a few fields and over a few fences through this really long corn field which climbs quite steeply upwards, and over a stile. about a half an hour walk, its got all these stupid horror stories told about it. i say stupid, though in reality i have discovered most of them to be true, but those are other stories. i'd taken my male and female friends there on many occasions, but never all the female ones together at night time, mainly cos only Chloe is the only one with the courage and love of horror not to run away screaming. and also because i was partly scared myself, that i couldnt protect them all together at once. but that night i was angry, angry that my parents were too busy with their own tangled love lives to notice what i was going through, angry that my brother was too obsessed with having a drunken riot to do anything but stare at my too baggy clothes and red scars and mutter something slurred, angry that even when he was sober he wouldn't care, or if he did, he would just get mad and say i was being stupid and did i want him to call the doctor or tell mum? anger makes you foolish, makes you implusive. part of me wanted to get hurt this time, if only to get some attention. so when my mates finally did arrive i helped them dump their stuff in the hall, and then told them of my plan. Alex totally freaked out, it took ages to persuade her, but the other two readily agreed, especially Chloe who was really hyped up and made me go search my room for all my lucky pentagrams- "to give us strength, who knows what we might encounter!" she had cried excitedly. Alex also made me go get a flashlight and a knife- "there is no bloody way im going up there in the dark- and i want you to have a weapon." i'd found that funny.
"me?! don't YOU want it, you're the one thats scared!"
"so? anyway im as weak as hell, and there is no way im sticking around to fight anything, you blinkin' mad? god!" well, at least she knew it, she was the girly, oh save me one of us lot anyway, and she'd never watched a single horror movie without hiding her face in my arm. poor thing. so we set off. we marched down the street to the first field, through the grass and over the fence (alex ripping her pants, heh heh ;)). thats where things got a big tricky. rosie and guess who, thats right, alex, were both scared of cows so they had to leg it to the other side and over the gate of this field, while me and chloe ran backwards behind them, cackling like loons to scare any maneating cows away. After alot of getting stuck in mud, caught in fences and running from 'vicious vultures' (to nonparanoid people, crows)we finally reached the stile. the moon had risen, and i could switch off the flashlight. moonlight shone down on the swaying corn around us, and the silhouette of the first dead tree on the Hill was swathed in silver. somewhere in the blackness ahead an animal cried. i felt someone take my hand, and i turned, was just able to see the gloomy outline of Alex's pale face. she was frightened. it was then i felt the first pang of regret, and i should have turned back then. but chloe was on my other side, her eyes a sparkle of blue glee in the darkness, and rosie whispered, "god its freaky" but with a brave undercurrent in her words nonetheless. so i stiffened my resolve, gently disloged alex's grasp, and climbed over the stile, my heart in my throat as i stepped on the moss of the Haunted Hill. i kept my eyes on my friends as one by one they joined me, Chloe bringing up the rear. a few deep breaths, and a gaze around (in daylight you can see the most stunning views of the valley)and we climbed down a little, crawling over the rabbit holes and holding onto boulders, then started to creep along a muddy outcrop of rock, a little ridge, in single file, me first, then alex, chloe and rosie, all the time aware of the steep high drop of the hill below us, one slip and you would be rolling down to the sand bank, and after that was a long fall. within a few seconds of inching along the great hulking outline of the opposite hill blocked out the moon, and blackness decended once more. suddenly Alex grabbed me and we both nearly fell! i tore at the grass and managed to stay upright. "WHAT ARE YOU PLAYING AT?" I hissed and slowly swung round to grab her shoulders. but she was shaking and gasping and i let my hands drop in horror. "whats wrong?" i whispered.
"ive just seen someone behind rosie! we're being followed!" i heard rosie and chloe catch their breath, and she moaned, " like a grey figure, a shape of a man! what are we going to do?" i held up my hand and softly i hissed,"ssshhh! all of you! listen." We all paused, and slowly turned to stare behind us. silence. an endless stretch of blackness. i shook my head. "theres nothing there!" Alex grabbed me once more. "there WAS! honestly, there was!" then rosie said quietly, "you know, i think i saw it too." chloe nodded to prove she too, had seen it. ""holy sh*t." said i. it was plain to see they weren't lying. "look, lets just keep- SNAP SNAP SNAP! "HOLY SH*T! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD F**K!" "AAAAARRRRGGGGHHH!"
"WHAT IN THE NAME OF F**K WAS THAT!"we screamed and screamed!! A twig to our left had snapped, then one to our right, and finally one ahead! we stood clutching each other, shaking and shivering, the black all around filled with menace! i broke apart from their grasps and started running, tearing at the thorns with my hands, ripping the flesh and bleeding. "come on!!" i heard crashes through the undergrowth behind me as my friends started running too, stumbling along in the blackness, tearing our way towards the tunnel of trees rising up like a black arch before us. inside lay deep shadow like the inside of a wolf's mouth- blacker than a cave, more deadly than imagination could create. and for the second time that god forsaken night, we were all deathly afraid, and a ripple of shivers passed through the icy thin air into each of of our bodies. another screech of an unknown animal filled the air and we twisted our necks as we ran, gazing up at the vast expanse of the sky dotted with stars frosty winds tearing at our lungs- and we crashed into the mini wood. all starlight went out, and the great green darkness of the leaf canopy hung just over our heads, the smell of fear thick in the air. "QUICK!" wheezed alex in a mutter, "TURN ON THE FLASHLIGHT!". chloe muttered behind her, "HURRY!" I stopped, fumbling with the buttons, causing alex to walk into me, chloe to bash into her and rosie to crash into all of us! i fell forward, cutting my cheek on the hawthorn trees walls on either side of us, squashing us in, and the flashlight fell to the ground with a heart stopping !CRACK!! "NO!" i cried aloud and suddenly the wood went silent as the grave, all i could hear was the ragged wheezing of alex and my mates' breathing. "you freak!" alex broke the silence with an angry whisper. "is it broken?" cried rosie in a undertone. gingerly i picked it up, and hit the on button. nothing.
"yes." behind me everyone groaned and the creaking of a tree made us jump. "we're just gonna have to find our way in the dark." rosie said softly. easier said than done, i thought, but we started walking again. faster this time. we continued in this way for a good ten minutes, jumping at every little noise, every little whistle of the wind, until i stopped. and looked around. and we were lost. "we're lost." i said. but nobody was listening. alex grabbed me once again. i turned. i looked behind. chloe stood, mouth open in shock. an owl hooted. rosie was gone.
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and i'll leave you there, dear reader, as i always like to leave a story on a cliffhanger. you can turn on your lights and stereo now. im sure you're glad to know i got the help i needed, i no longer cut myself, i sleep and i eat. but rosie, well one day i might tell you what happened to rosie.
one day.
*i will go down as your lover, your friend, give me your lips and with one kiss we begin*